I hate valentines day. Please, don't think i'm some bitch who just hates it because shes single because... well that is me, but thats not the only reason why i hate it. I hate valentines day because it reminds me of every other valentines day. I haven't ever had a good valentines day. As long as i can remember my heart has been cut into itty bitty pieces and left hung to dry on valentines day. I will never forget the time in grade 5 when i gave this boy i liked a special valentine... he ripped it up in my face. Or the time when i broke up with my boyfriend on valentines day over the phone in grade 6 and then the time i told a boy i liked him on valentines day and he laughed... can't remember how old i was then but it hurt. I'm not too hung up on these things, don't worry, i'm older now so these are all just little memories that make me laugh at myself. What actually gets to me is the realization that being single on this ever so special day is looked down upon. U know that annoying friend you have who tells you something not knowing you don't want to hear it? well i told my friend i hadn't had a bf since grade 7. I'm in grade 11 now, and i didn't really see the big deal. He on the other hand had to say something along the lines of " REALLY? wow thats a long time."  See, i never thought that it was a long time until he had mentioned it. Now it's a consuming thought. 4 years i've been single? why is that so wrong? and it's not like i'm asking please drop a bf into my lap because i'm not up for that BS, but it's like this. I've never had a real date, or a REAL boyfriend. Thats why i resent valentines day. Single people, who have had fufilling relationships can enjoy this day thinking of their old love. The best love i've had is probably my grade 1 boyfriend bobby. We held hands, kissed, talked, it was nice.But seriously we were like 7... that should not be the love i think about on valentines day.  and you wanna hear the best date i've been on? my boyfriend and i at the time were supposed to meet up for the first time ( blind dating..? i know...it was for a friend... i'm too nice) and we met at mc dondalds... he bought me fries i think... possibly something else. and we talked for 5 mins before i had to leave because lunch break at school was almost over. sadness. thats my #1 date.

So, what i'm trying to say to everyone this valentines day is. If ur in love. Enjoy it, this is the time of year where i will not get angry for PDA, ur inlove for gosh sakes ! show eachother, take eachother, smile with eachother. just be and enjoy the feeling of being with eachother

If you have someone you love, but they don't know you love them: TELL THEM, PLEASE DO IT. DON'T WAIT.

if you're single like me, just say i'm single and i'm happy. and if that BS doens't work for you, look at your messed up past relationships and love filled mishaps and laugh, because laughter is love, and this is not just a celebration of being in a relationship day, this is a day to celebrate love, general love <3 remember that.

so my rant is over, if u read this all, good on you. if you didn't  i don't care? just love this valentines day as hard as u can.

Peaceandlove xoxoxoxoxxoxoxox -Brianna